Hey there, I'm Jared Scheib.
I've come to see Complex PTSD as a useful way to describe my life experience, starting from childhood. Complex PTSD is like working double-time, never feeling fully safe, questioning whether I can trust, struggling with relationships, feeling constantly afraid & haunted. I trace it back clearly to violence, terror, hurt, & overwhelm when I was a kid. I internalized a deep distrust within myself, in response to those external experiences in my formative childhood relationships.
My personal mission has always been to get out of the muck, to heal, believing I could learn to have healthy relationships, to rediscover trust, levity, & wholeness. To love without fear. My life has been dedicated to my healing journey. I've made enormous strides. I've come to see how self-forgiveness is at the root of feeling & becoming whole again. I've finally learned how to forgive myself, to let go, move on, and thrive.
Community has been a cornerstone of my mental health journey. I wouldn't be where I am without the empathetic engagement of thousands of people through the years, allowing me to feel safe to be vulnerable, to bear my soul. Most recently I've found kindred community in NYC.
I founded Pineapple AF to create & foster a safe, transformative community experience to support me and other kindred spirits on our continued mental health journeys toward wholeness.